Dear M....

For you, the one I call 'M' ...

I tried to find you.
I tried to contact you.
I tried to visit you.

At the same time, I always try to forget you.
I always try to leave you.
I always try to keep my distance from you.

The further I go, the closer you come.
The further you go, the closer I come.

I will not be able to forget our memory.
I will not be able to eliminate our experience.
I will not be able to eradicate the story our life.

But now you are gone. Now you disappeared. Your disappearance put a full stop to me from turning up. Your disappearance wipes out my desire, my will and my wants.

Saya pasrah. Saya reda.

Thank you for everything you have shared with me.
Thank you for everything you have sacrificed for me.
Thank you for everything you have taught me.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Thank you.